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I created this little dance to @lizzobeeating 's #soulmate. It's an entire #mood. @thuvarakas always asks me, "How's dating going?" and nowadays I'm like, "We still doing that in 2019?" I knew dating was a game, but this is foolishness. There is no point. No rhyme or reason. Just frustration and confusion and exhaustion. It made absolutely no sense. So a while ago I deleted all of the apps, totally forgot about all of my online profiles, decided to stop responding to randoms in my DMs, stopped dragging myself to events I didn't even want to go to in the first place. I took myself out of the race — out of the game (I was never really in the game tbh). I decided to forget it and do me. Go places even if there were no men there, do things because I wanted to do them and not because I might meet potential bae, stop trying to be attractive but rather just be. Choose me, again and again. Choose to be happy, again and again. Nothing that's meant for me will miss me. There's a peace that pervades when you are not eternally striving to turn what is into what could be or what isn't. Maybe finding the "one" is actually about kissing a dozen frogs and constantly getting out there. Perhaps those who keep trying will find the thing that seems to constantly evade me. I don't really know. I also don't really care. All I want to do is read and write and cook and eat and draw and colour and dance or workout in warm climates. Preferably with a beach nearby. And a plate of oxtail. I'm committed to living my best life and choosing joy at every opportunity and being open to (embracing?) the adventure of the unexpected life that is unfolding in front of me with grace, curiosity and compassion. Here's the part of the story where I'm supposed to tell you that just when I stopped looking, *he* appeared. Well, that hasn't happened. In my case, *she* appeared. The happy ending is that I'm happy because I'm with my soulmate: me. I make myself so happy. And I shall live happily ever after. The end. tl;dr: Screw it — I'm going to be happy.